Hey everyone!
I am now back in Switzerland and settled in. I have now started my Leadership classes and I am super excited about what God is going to do in my life, the lives of my classmates, and the world around me. One of my assignments is to create a personal theme for the next twelve weeks of school. I thought I would share some of my theme with you guys.
When I was thinking about what my theme would be, I kept thinking of drowning...going under and being immersed in God's presence, being embraced and consumed by him. During the next twelve weeks, I really want to be captivated and swallowed up completely by each part of God, His love, His mercy, His kindness, His gentleness, His grace.....all aspects, even those I’m not aware of yet. I want to be able to experience it all. I want to know God as fully as humanly possible. I can’t think of any life more satisfying.
Another assignment I was given was to write some personal goals that I want to achieve during this season. I really want God to develop the potential He has placed in me. I think while I was home for the 4 months in between schools, I seemed to sink into a deep pit. For some reason, I really felt stuck and depressed. I would go so far to say that I felt lost…adrift… even though I was still getting into the word with God and spending time with him. I just didn’t seem to be able to put my heart into things. I noticed, though, that I was having trouble laying down what I needed to lay down. Instead, I felt that I was relying on myself to get through the day instead of relying on God as much as I should have. I felt, too, that there was a hole in my faith, and I was doubting God more than I had before. It really hindered me from seeing the bigger picture God wanted me to see. God did not give up on me though. He helped me understand that I really do love people and value relationships. However, I often hold myself back because of my own insecure thoughts like, " Oh Sarah you know you are an introvert. You know you are shy and get super anxious around people." I know that I am holding myself back by thinking or saying these things to myself. I am making it one of my goals to break free from these chains that have created a stronghold in my life.
I ask for and appreciate your prayers as God grows me in my walk and in my faith.
Blessings,
Sarah.
